Re Eval

So I failed today. Did something I haven't done in over 4 years. Failed a timed 2 mile run. I could make a lot of excuses as to why I didn't pass. I'm flat footed, got 2 messed up ankles that effect the rest of my body. In turn I have to work extra hard at what comes with ease to people with normal lower extremities. But I won't bitch because I'm healthy and I have to feet and 2 legs where as some people don't have that. Because I failed, somebody who I respected told me I don't deserve to be in the position I'm in. I'll take it as constructive criticism, but I will not let anybody tell me what I do and do not deserve. I've been at the bottom many times and I've never given up on life. Its just time to regroup and refocus. Time work past the point of pain and break my body down then build it back up. I hate losing and i refuse to make same mistakes.

90 days in

So 3 months down and 9 to go. Finally started running on a somewhat regular basis. It hasn't been easy since I'm out of cardio shape. I miss the days when I could run 2 miles with no problem. Stepped on the scale and I'm up to 198. 42" chest and 15 1/2" arms. Put up 225 4 times with no help so I'm getting stronger. I think I might cut back on the supplements and just go with protein. It's getting expensive and I've got other things I need to save my money for. Well that's all for now. Holla back in a month.

Month 2

Month 2. Time has been going by at a decent rate. Finally started running. Not consistently but I started. This gut just doesn't want to go away. Been hovering around 195. Same supplements, Creatine, ZMA and Protein.

1 More Rep

So I've been working out consistently since I've been deployed. Mostly lifting. Haven't done a lot of cardio like I should. The weather hasn't been cooperating. Running is not one of my favorite things to do anyways. I might add some more circuit workouts to my routine. Today I ordered some ZMA. Its a Zinc and Magnesium supplement that boost your testosterone. I'm trying to keep it strictly natural. I just ordered one bottle so we will check the results and see whether or not I will keep up with it. I'm not using any pro-hormones or steroids. It makes lifting a little harder and more frustrating but I don't want the side effects that come with it.

Lifting weights has been my therapy. Being deployed is never easy. It's like doing time. So I keep my mind occupied. I just like going and being able to make changes to my body. I remember being the skinny kid in high school that was never popular with the females. I was 144 when I joined the Army about 5 years ago. now I'm 193. Looking good is nice, but I appreciate the health benefits that come with it. The big challenge will come when I get back to the States and I have all the distractions of the world. I'll most likely join a gym, since I know if I pay for it ill be more inclined to go. Plus I might look into MMA. Its the latest craze, but it gives you the best all around work out. Well that's all from .the Cradle of Civilization. Until the next one, be easy

Ride

Another low low budget from Ciara. She wasn't lying when she said she knows how to market sex. I wish she knew how to step outside the box. The video appeals to me on the lust level but nothing else. The chopped and screwed element is played out and over done and I'm wondering if Luda is the only rapper in the A that she knows. I ain't hatin, im just observin. The word hate get's tossed around a little too much. Ah well Ciara will never be able to tell me to appreciate women for their minds more than their bodies. But I would like to thank her for givin me some eye candy while im doin this 12 month bid.

1 month down 11 to go

So I've been deployed for a month now and I've been exercising regularly. Mostly lifting weights. I haven't been able to run due to the weather making the area I'm in too muddy. Trying to keep a routine diet has been hard. The food at the chow hall isn't the best quality and the lines are super long. Most of the time I just drink protein shakes and eat cup o noodles. I've decided to use natural supplements such as protein and creatine. It makes lifting harder but I'm not trying to murder my liver. I weighed 186 when i deployed, now I'm weighing in at 194. 6lbs of good weight gained. Once i'm able to run on a regular basis ill be able to cut out the rest of this fat. The progress is slow but its coming. Go Hard or Go Home. Holla at yall next month.

Break to build

So I've dedicated this year in Iraq to improving my body. Before I deployed I got pretty damn lazy. Wasn't really doing a lot of PT and I was eating very unhealthy. Lot's of fast food on a regular basis. Plus i was dealing with the stress of other things in my life. I have no excuses now. I have plenty of time to hit the gym. So I will be updating my progress. As you see my before pic isn't looking too good. I will lift 6 days a week, attempt to run 3 days a week and rest on Sunday. The only supplements I will use are Protein and Creatine. And maybe a fat burner. Hopefully there will be a drastic change from what you see now to what you see at the end of my deployment. Well that's all for now. Holla at you next month