Runaway

How Kanye feels about the bird is how I feel about a certain somebody. I had a long blog in mind but I'll keep this one simple

Flawed

It took me a while, but I realized that I am a very flawed individual. I make a lot of mistakes and there were times that I went left when I should gone right. My desire to please people left me empty a lot of the times. If it meant lying I did it, if it meant going broke I did it and the choices that I made when dealing w/ women were sometimes questionable. Many times I just did too much or not enough. I figure that if doing wrong got me in some of these fucked up positions, I'm going to try and see what doing right will get me. At the end of the day I just want to live a simple life; watch my kids grow up and grow old with my lady. Sabotaging my happiness will not get me there. Until the next time, live life abundantly.

Keeping it real

I see its been a while since I emptied my brain on here. A lot has changed since I last posted something. I'm still in this shit hole called Iraq. I moved to a new location a few months back. My work hours have increased as well as my stress level. My gym time decreased drastically and I'm only averaging about one full meal a day so I've lost 10 lbs. I go on RnR and I can't wait. I need it, because I'm burned out. When I get back I'll have 3 months left in country when I get back.

For once I'm actually looking forward to the future. I usually live day to day because thinking about my career, my kids, my impending divorce, and a certain somebody (who shall remain nameless till my divorce is final) was just getting to be too much. I have to tell myself everyday that I just need to go w/ the flow and quit making my own plans because in the end it will be up to the Good Lord.

I know one thing is for certain, it feels damn good to have a person in my life that i can be 100% honest w/. For the longest time I had issues w/ trust because I was always worried about the consequences. I used to lie to my soon to be ex wife on a regular basis because I just didn't want to deal w/ her attitude. A lot of people kill their relationships with other people because they don't know that impact out weighs intent. You can mean one thing, but it can be perceived differently.

I may not have it all the way together but I win more than I lose and that's all that matters. Well until the next time I decide to put in my random 2 cents, live life abundantly.

Oh yeah, the reasoning behind the pic is that that is my image of what a partnership should be. Two people loving each other, and not constantly attacking each other because of insecurities.