Re Eval

So I failed today. Did something I haven't done in over 4 years. Failed a timed 2 mile run. I could make a lot of excuses as to why I didn't pass. I'm flat footed, got 2 messed up ankles that effect the rest of my body. In turn I have to work extra hard at what comes with ease to people with normal lower extremities. But I won't bitch because I'm healthy and I have to feet and 2 legs where as some people don't have that. Because I failed, somebody who I respected told me I don't deserve to be in the position I'm in. I'll take it as constructive criticism, but I will not let anybody tell me what I do and do not deserve. I've been at the bottom many times and I've never given up on life. Its just time to regroup and refocus. Time work past the point of pain and break my body down then build it back up. I hate losing and i refuse to make same mistakes.

90 days in

So 3 months down and 9 to go. Finally started running on a somewhat regular basis. It hasn't been easy since I'm out of cardio shape. I miss the days when I could run 2 miles with no problem. Stepped on the scale and I'm up to 198. 42" chest and 15 1/2" arms. Put up 225 4 times with no help so I'm getting stronger. I think I might cut back on the supplements and just go with protein. It's getting expensive and I've got other things I need to save my money for. Well that's all for now. Holla back in a month.

Month 2

Month 2. Time has been going by at a decent rate. Finally started running. Not consistently but I started. This gut just doesn't want to go away. Been hovering around 195. Same supplements, Creatine, ZMA and Protein.